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Beth Wallace
06 January 2009 @ 08:23 pm
A quick post to wish a special friend of mine, Softpaw, a very happy Birthday!! :D  May you get everything you wish and your birthday is the best ever!! :D :D
 
 
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Beth Wallace
17 June 2008 @ 03:21 am

Good gravy!  It has been a minute since I posted something last... where to begin.  I guess, from where I left off.

I didn't get that house I was hoping to get, *surprise* and I have been still living with mudder since Decemeber.  Well, two weeks ago I found something in Kinston that I really liked, and it looks like that I might get it... *crosses fingers and toes.*  I had the lawyer call me today to confirm some stuff, and the appraisal's been out there already, as has the inspector.  I really really -really- hope I get this house!!  

And now, the bad news.

If/when I move into that house, I will no longer have the internet... *Frowns* It's always something, yanno?  Can only have one... the cake, or the eating ability.  Personally, i like to have both...  I think that if I really tighten up my belt, I -might- just be able to afford something, but I'm not sure exactly what.  We will just have to see.

Having foot surgery a week Wednesday....  I'm a little nervous about it.  Doc's going to cut the tendon in my foot to try and relieve some of the pain that I am having.  He said that there is a chance that I could rip the tendon where he is going to cut it, and that just worries me more.... but, either way i'm going to be in pain- so let's op for the way that has a chance of relieving the pain! :D  Yes, that is always a sound plan.

The day after the surgery, I will be heading for my other doctor to talk about getting on different medication that will stop the depression that I am falling in, or to get on some "happy pills."  Either way, I'm not to excited.  I'm really tired of waking up in the morning and wondering why I shuold even get out of bed... I know it's the hormone issue I have- i felt like this before I started on "the pill."  When I learned I had this hormone disorder to begin with.  I mean- there are several issues going on: I'm losing tons of weight (not necessarily a bad thing) but i'm losing my hair, whie other, unwanted hair, seems to grow more rapidly.  Something's not right in my body- I can -feel- it, and I just don't know what to do. :(  Hopefully Doctor Michaelson can fix it, and I know she will- because she's the doctor. :D

Besides that, nothing much else going on.  Been working buckoo hours lately- this store is a lot busier than any other store that i've been at, and it's starting to get to me.  I don't know- maybe i'm not cut out to do this anymore, I've been working for this corporation for 5 years now... but on the other hand- I need this job and it's money to buy this house....

Well, I guess enough ranting for now.  Apologies all around.

 
 
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
 
 
Beth Wallace
13 February 2008 @ 03:10 am

Wow.  I'm sitting here at the computer and you can hear the raindrops that pelt the roof.  It's actually... quite... cozy. :)  Makes me want to go into my bed and pull out a good book and read... well, maybe later. lol!  

Still no word from the Old Man about getting the contract signed.  I got the bank waiting on him, I got my lawyer waiting on him, and I got the contractor waiting on him.  Gaaah!  They are all calling me to find out what's going on, and the only thing I keep telling them is: "It's the Old Man!  He still isnt' getting anything done!"  At this rate, it may be late March before I can even -think- about moving in. :(  And that just sucks!!  I just wish that he'd make up his mind if he wants to sell me this place or not.  Because, I really don't want him to screw around and mess up my chances of getting it.  *growls*  How long is this suppose to take, dang nabbit!

Anyways....

Went store hoppin' again- one of the AM's at Jamescity got sick with phenoma and is at home until Thursday.  Had to go over there last week to help out that store while she was gone.  It was fun!  But it messed me up with my store.  i was suppose to be working dayshifts with Nancy and Faith- (((Just as a bit of note:  the store I'm at now, Glenburni, as a very very busy store *2 billion dollar a year store* and it is super busy on the dayshifts... Something I am -not- use to!))) but because I was at Jamescity that week, I wasn't able to get the chance to work with them and get my mojo.  Now, I'm running dayshifts like a chicken without his head because it's soooo damn busy, and I don't have a strategy yet!  Gaah!  It makes me look like a nincompoop via my drive thru times and whatnot.  BUt never fear!  I will get it down!  I must!

So.  Yes.  that's about all for now.  I can't wait until I can put something truely awesome in here... like... I can move in!  But it will be soon!! 

....I hope! ;)

 
 
Current Mood: determineddetermined
Current Music: Garth Brooks -- I will sail my vessal
 
 
Beth Wallace
06 February 2008 @ 09:23 pm
Wow, so much has happened...!  Where to start... I think, right here!

I am offical done with Kinston, NC.  I have all my stuff out of the house, cleaned the mess outta the house, and a storage unit filled with all of my belongings.  At the current time, I am homeless.  Well, I'm staying with my Mudder- but as far as myself having a house to call my own...?  Nope.  With that being said- no.  We still haven't heard from the realator if we have gotten the house or not.  It will be two weeks... tomorrow... since we put the bid in.  Every time we call the Old Man, he seems to give us the run around, saying that he needs toc all these people, or he needs to fill this paperwork out, or whatever else he needs to do.  My thought is this: If we weren't going to be getting the house, why is he going through all this trouble?  So, I'ma thinking that perhaps... just perhaps... i did get this place.  Keeping fingers crossed though!

Work's going on about the same as it normally does.  Once again, someone got sick over at another store, so I've been placed there to help out.  I don't mind- keeps my life interesting, and keeps things mixed up so it's not the same thign over and over again.  I've also been moved to dayshifts this week- so my online time just got a wee bit shorter on some days.  But it's okay. :)  

Really, that's about all for now.  Just waiting and twiddling thumbs as I wait to hear about this house... oh, I hope and hope I get it!!!
 
 
Current Mood: lazylazy
Current Music: ABBA -- Gimme Gimme Gimme
 
 
Beth Wallace
30 January 2008 @ 02:56 am

Blah... I never realized how stressful this whole moving from Kinston would be.  I have moved plenty of times, but this is the only time where I feel like pulling my hair out.  I could have sworn that the last time I moved, I had the truck resevered more than a week away from the moving date-- now we're told that it's better to reserve a truck closer to the date of moving... i don't want friday to show up and i have no turck.  I need to be out by Monday, and I only have thursday-saturday off... and I turn keys in on Monday.  I better get this truck!  Phil will be calling them tomorrow to make sure we have a truck.

Then there is getting a storage unit.  There are like a billion of storage units in New Bern, but why is that all the units that I want to rent are not availble?!?  I have tried getting 4 different units, just to find out that they don't have anymore.  Then why did they tell me how much they are if they have none available??? Stupid people.  I shall get one reserved tomorrow as well-- even if it means getting two of the smaller units... dammit.

Okay, and now about that house..... called the Old Man today, and he just blew us off, saying: "you should hear something in a couple of days or so..." that's it.  No hint about when, no hint that it's a good possiblity that I got, no hint that he even cares if we get this place or not.  I wish i had a heads up so I can start calling contracting people to get ideas of who can come out and inspect the house so I can get that done and the mortage thign done...

blah.  THen there's the threat of this recession.... watch me get the house and then loose it because of the recession... -_-' I know my luck...   

BUT!  I will keep the faith! :D  I know I'm going to have a truck, I know i'm giong to have a storage unit... and all by Friday! :D  Then, on MOnday I'm going to get the call saying I got the house! :D

Now... for this to happen...

 
 
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Faithless -- One step closer
 
 
Beth Wallace
27 January 2008 @ 03:49 am
This is sooo funny!  you have -got- to check it out!  LOL... i almost peed my pants.... really.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mYUo_VEt0fw



Go on.  click it.  You know you want to.... ;)
 
 
Current Mood: gigglygiggly
 
 
Beth Wallace
26 January 2008 @ 02:46 am

I love quizes. :D 

Well, it would have bene cool if this thing here worked and posted the bloody quiz and not just the html... oh well.  It was cute! :D  I was a lemon!
 
 
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: Will Smith -- Gettin' Jiggy Wit It
 
 
Beth Wallace
24 January 2008 @ 02:41 am
Well I put an offical bid on the house today.  now all I have to do is sit and wait and hope that I get it.  I can't wait until i'm done messing around with this realator.  He is really getting on my last nerve... but I won't dwell on that.  I'm already angered as it is. :) 

on to the good thoughts. :)

Oh!  I heard from Meg today!  HI MEG!! :D  It's sooo good to hear from you! :D :D

That was a pleasant surprise! :D  I like pleasant surprises. :)  

Work is going along fine.  Same stuff, just different days.  Thought I had to go to a meeting in Kinston, but I didn't today... yay!  Saves me some gas.  i will be heading there Friday to continue to pack and clean the old place.  Hopefully, if all goes well, I can move house to house, instead of house to storage to house.  It would be nice, but highly unexpected.

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning... the dreadful "Yearly examine."  *shudders*  I hate those things.  I just wish that Dr. Michaelson would just go ahead and give me the bloody historectamy and then I won't have to worry about this anymore.  But she won't, 'cause I'm "too young."  Sure, I can understand, but with the hormone problems that I have, I have less than 10% chance of carrying full term anyways, so what's the point?  If Phil and I were really to have kids, we are going to adopt.  I know my luck-- if we were to have childern, which we are NOT, they would have my looks and his brains.  Not a pleasant combination.  And with the autism that runs in my family... it just isn't a good idea to breed.  So, i'm determined and I know i'm right, it's just convincing the doctors that I know what I'm talking about.

It's been a long couple of days-- i can't wait until all of this is over.  I just want to know if I got it, and if I don't, then I will move on.  :) I t's that simple.  I'm not going to stress over this anymore.

And if you believe taht, I have a bridge to sell you in London-- it keeps falling down, but if you get a key and lock her up- it's fantastic!

hahahaha.
 
 
Current Mood: draineddrained
Current Music: Final Fantasy 8 -- Chocobo Theme Song
 
 
Beth Wallace
22 January 2008 @ 02:48 am
hi!  
I just returned home from another long day at work.  But- just like the other day, i had a nice surprise wating for me in my email: A message that SoftPaw (Jen!) has added me to her friends list! :D  I am sooo excited!  She is another friend that I had back in college, and the founder of GRI where I use to rp at.  It is so awesome to hear from her, and knows that she remembers me! :D  Makes me all warm and squishy inside.

Hi Jen! :D *waves!*

Besides that, am giong to be calling the mortage people tomorrow to see about that house.  I hope it works out.  The more I think about the place, the more and more I like it.  I really want this house.  I think it will be perfect for Jaws and us. :)  The backyard is so nice and large, and the deck will be perfect to relax on and watch him play with Phil... *sighs*  But, I know my luck, I'm prolly not going to get this house. B ut I want it sooo bad!! :D  But- I know if it was meant to be, I will get it.  And if not,t hen there is something else better out there for me juts waiting for me to find it. :)

I am optomistic! :D  I am happy!  I am well!  I know I will be alright!!

And on that note, to rp! :D
 
 
Current Mood: chipperchipper
Current Music: Lou Bega -- Mambo #5
 
 
Beth Wallace
21 January 2008 @ 03:51 am
I was reading a bit of the old entries I made, (2004 and before) and I must say, what a depressing person i was!  You can tell that I was having a lot of problems back then... I am glad that my life is settling.  

I am on medication for my PCOS, and it is helping me tremendously.  I've lost a lot of weight, I am feeling better, and the mood swings have stablized more.  I am happier more now than I was before, and the dark thoughts don't take over me as much as they did before.  I also am getting my feet worked on-- I have plantar faticities, and heel spurs-- which, according to my foot doctor, if we can't fix, then will be getting foot surgery on both feet to lessen the pressure on the tendon that's over-stretched.  I went through physical therapy, have custom inserts made.  They are helping, but, my feet still hurt.  However, I will continue to do my stretches, and do what I am told to do to make my feet better.

I've been role playing again.  It's nice. :)  I am not able to play my orginal characters, but I am able to play a version of them, which is good.  Well, I am able to play Sha at least.  Somewhat.  She can't be a gargoyle anymore, but, at least still has wings.  The channel that i am on does not allow gargoyles, and you must pick from the races that's available.  The closest race to Sha, I believe, is what they call Torians... which are basically angels.  I feel that is the best for Sha, so that's what i did.  ANd you'll never believe who i found there- Alta_Nova.  I haven't talked to her in -years-!  It feels good to talk to her again. :)  

Hmmm...  Phil and I are still married... don't know if I mentioned that.  Yeah, surprise isn't it?  I thought for sure I'd kill him by now. ;)  Naah.  Just kidding.  he's a good guy for the most part. :)  he has his issues, but well, we all do.  :)

That's it for tonight.  :)  Toodles!
 
 
Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful
Current Music: Faithless -- Tarantula